tRaNsPaReNt

        It's crazy how the anxiety that I once felt about talking about and sharing the possibilities of us having our own family has changed over the last few weeks. Just putting it out there and becoming more transparent than I have even been has made so much difference. I am glad that I did it. 

      I have found myself talking with some sweet ladies I am acquainted with recently. It helped that they were encouraging and supportive. I was able to share even more details than I have written. I was surprised how easily the words came out of my mouth. I did not feel like crying and was able to remain composed throughout the conversations. 

       Being this transparent has definitely been challenging for me, while I usually seem to struggle for perfection, I have realized that no matter how many times I edit, delete, or rewrite our story it is something that is still hard for me. It is also something that I found that is finally bringing me some peace. As I continue to share the intimate details of this part of our story and the obstacles we have faced and are still facing, I am finding it easier to be more transparent than I have ever been able to be before.